Memories~

Experiences gained, Skills learned, Steps remembered, Perspiration swept, Effort given, Patience offered, Hard work experienced, Pictures captured and Memories cherished.

I jus wanna say thank you to Esther, for teaching us step by step with great patience, effort and hard work, helping us take the first step in this career, and giving us the confidence to take our second step and beyond... Thank You Esther!!
We will not let you down, for the great amount of hardwork, effort and patience u put into teaching us, we shall work hard and try our best, to advance further and beyond in this career. You are our first teacher and shall always be!

See u soon! Takecare and lets work hard Together! :}









These are the photos that we took together... Memories that will be Forever Remembered and Cherished <3









My Lao Shi, Esther! :D









Do Re Mi height~ :D









Do-Re-Mi! This time Esther joined in! :D haha!









9 faces! :D hahaa









Quan Jia Fu! :)

Seriously tired...

Woah! im stressed out, exhausted, and tired...

Good news: Got selected to go Kimage salon be Apprentice after a hard 3 days of orientation training :)

Bad news: Gotta start work starting next week, 1st of march monday onwards for 2 1/2 years non-stop, 6 working days a week, 1 day off during weekdays, morning shift of 10.50am-9pm daily or afternoon shift of arnd 12-9pm? thats around... 317 days of work in 365 days a year! with annual leave of 7-14 days? still nt sure abt the annual leave thingy... That means, im gonna be a busy man, workaholic! Which means, friends, im not gonna see u all for a long time! wad will it be like if i were not to see u all for months or even years? that, im curious... we may even loss contact! Please stay in contact as much as possible!
And this also means that im not gonna update my blog that often alrdys, may even MIA from Facebook, MSN and the internet world...
But never say goodbye! As the Kim Sheng that u know now is still living!!!

Anyways, feel free to drop by Rivervale Mall anytime to hav your hair washed by me :) I will giv u good service confirm! :) Jus find me in Rivervale Mall's Kimage hair studio. I'll be there :) unless i off lo haha :D

Wif love my frens,
Please always remember me, that im still alive, still living and within your reach...
Please never ever forget me, your fren that longs to see u all, who will be slogging hard to find his way in life...

I may be uploading pictures of my these past 3 days orientation in Kimage School Of Hairdressing at FUNAN DigitalLife Mall. Stay tuned! :D

To Be Continued...

CNY holidays going to over soon! :D hahas

Weee!!!~~
Chinese New Year sch holidays gonna be over soon! hahas
im go glad that its ending soon, cause im bored at home when everyone is out there bai nian! OMG! bored to death na~

I wanna go out shopp shop na!! CNY holidays if havent over then alotz alotz shops nvr open! sian lehh! haha
And all my frens out there bai nian bo tyme go out na! :(
after get ang bao lui, gonna spend them all haha :D shop till i drop hohoho~

hahas last sunday bai nian was great! :D
Although ang bao a little bit nia.. like hundred plus only.. chey~ :X

i go bai nian this yr wif a more formal dressing :D haha
like this...






LOL! when i go bai nian that time, all my cousins wear till like uh go wedding dinner like that uh! Lucky i wear formal :D hahas! :D
haish, total ang bao money collected only like uh 200 plus? my mama gibb me the most! 100! :D love hers much much na! :D haha

This year valentine day no sch, nothing special uh :D hahas, no rumours or gossips hahas, suddenly feel kinda wierd nt having hear this things like in sch life :D hahas.. tats bcuz my life changed lots! for jus a single decision of quit sec 5! hahas, anyways im nt taking o levels anymore so hmmph, hack care liao, about studies all this hahahahahahahahaaa!
Shopping everyday :D
Jus waiting for Kimage to call me for my hairstyling traineeship course lolx! C00l, i waiting for pay day nia when that time comes, hahahaha!

Im crazy over shopping!!

Okays, tmr wil be ang bao day!! hahax :D
Happy New Year to the person who read this :D and happy valentines day too! :P

I was thinking, once i gt my ang bao, wad should i do?? maybe i should spend them all!! :D or save?? hahax of course spend!!! :D :D hahas!
Im gonna buy a GUCCI wallet maybe? but i alrdy gt a LV wallet!
Im kinda attracted to a Gucci sunglass! but i alr hav one PRADA one.. Hmmphh...
Belt i oso don need so many.. i alrdy hav one nice nice gucci belt lerhs, buying more only throw one side nia uhs :/
Maybe perfume? hahas :D Burberry perfume arent that bad~
Or maybe i should buy a Gucci men's sling bag! :D hahas! BUT i go out nvr wear bag one lehh :( buy put one side oso :(

Maybe i jus shop it all on clothings in ZARA, shoes in ALDO? hmmph...
Maybe bo liao go buy a gucci handphone strap -.-
LOL!
Maybe i spend it on some restaurants and eat good food yea! that is quite a gd idea! :D hahas
Gonna go out after new year, enjoy my no school life b4 its over :D hahas :D

Okays gonna sleep, tmr morning early early gotta wake up and go bai nian liao :D cant miss out on extra money man!! can buy more things! hahs! :D
takecares, HAPPY NEW YEAR@!!! :D HUAT ARGHH!!!

im in a relationship with Shopping!! :)

For a consecutive run of 3 weeks, i have been going out non stop everyday!! no off days! hahas :D
I am falling in love with shopping so deep that i think we had a relationship! hahas! LOL
I nvr shop one day will die uh :P hehe

Okay i cant believe i writing a new post at this hour of the day!! I have been unable to sleep at night this few days till around 6am then i start to sleep!! and i get up around the range of like 12pm - 3pm in the afternoon? then i will go out shopping AGAIN! hahas :D

Life is so carefree without study and work or anything to worry about :D hahax so good :) but i only got like 2 and half more months b4 i start my work&study!! OH MY!!!!!!! gotta cherish every single moment nw hahas :D

Hmm i think im tired, maybe its time i shld go get some sleep :P
Nitexnitex <3

Damn Scary Movie, as expected from thailand movies!

Warhhs!! Today gone out again! :D
Went out to shop wif my new fren!! :)
hhaahaax, talked alotzz of craps and abt everything l0lx!!
Finally got back my 50 dollars from my ex colleage :) haha so happy :) left 50 dollars more to return to me and loan settled! case close haha :D

Had lunch-dinner at somerset KFC, hohoho, long time no eat luhs!! KFC suddenly taste so good! :D hahas, then we walked and walked around orchard road, from somerset to taka then to ion then to far east... hahax, then we wnt to dhoby catch a movie!!
Guess wad?! we catched a horror movie, hahax, damn horror larhs, disgusting also!! OMG!! its a thailand movie called 'My Ex'
Okay dont talk abt it lerrhs! Damn fcuking scary lorhhs, and disgusting >.< most of the time i was like covering my eyes... cause i don wan nightmares uh!! :/
If u haven catch the movie yet, don find me and ask me the story horhxx! i don wan talk abt it lerhs, u go watch it yourself wif frens barhs! jus one warning! damn scary!! hahax :P

Got home like 11 plus 12... bought carrot cake at house downstairs and 2 box of chicken and micorwaved it at 7 eleven! reach home watch SOCCER!! Arsenal vs Chelsea! okay shld be Chelsea vs Arsenal... cause chelsea home -.- and scored 2 goals so fast and game end at 2 goals to nil... stupid larhhs, i was expecting Arsenal to giv a good fight but then in the end like nothing of a fight lorhs.. haix siann...

Now cant sleep >.< scared later got nightmares hahax, now going to play fifa 10 on ps3 hahax till morning then slp :P hahax
Bye byes everyone!!

My life seems to be changing bit by bit... Even myself seems to be changing... bt in a bad way or a gd way??

Today alarm rang at 8,30 am. lazy to get out of bed..
ever since i quitted from sec 5 and from sec sch life, im becoming more and more lazy, sticking to my bed all day...
I changed... a lot.. i either sleep on my bed whole day, or go out shopping whole day, or go out during the nite till next morning..

My life wasn't like that in the past, in fact in the past 2 months... its like within 2 weeks, i changed, tremendously... after everything that had happened, my life begin to change. But i feel much more mature nw, much more free and easy... it seems like somehow, somewhat, a piece of burden on my shoulder is gone... a burden that i felt it on my shoulders for years.

But, is my life changing for the betta or for the worst? I hope is for the betta... but either way, i don't seem to care already.
My environment change me and i change by the environment. Occasionally, i had the feeling tat my old self, my old life is back, but i jus dare nt accept it. I want a change in my life, i want it so badly that as long as there is a change, a new start, im eager to walk the path, even if the path that i am walking is a road down the dungeon, i don't mind at all.

Today is counted as quite normal, waking up early in the morning, bath, blow hair and everything then go out... But the different thing is that im meeting my 'Gan Mei' this time... pick her after sch, go puki! (bugis) buy a shirt and a bag for her, then we walked around... treat her mac, then took taxi to Boon Lay go the LAN shop use internet -.- zai horrx!! my fone also gt internet, but aiya nth to do go there burn time lorhhs.. After that, my Gan Mei went to meet her boyfren! so i alone liao lorhhs...
I rang my Gan Mei's Gan Jie, Cheryl... asked her if she is still at Somerset, then she said yarhs going to somerset soon, so i took mrt, stood in the mrt and fell asleep stnading!!! only woken up when the mrt gave everyone a sudden jerk and my legs nearly gave way cause im slpin... when it gave way i woke up again... this time found myself in city hall mrt station so i changed to red line to orchard cause Cheryl said she in far east wif her frens... when i reached orcahrd, i found out that my mouth is bleeding AGAIN!! bleeding for no reason man after that stupid accident!! so went to toilet washed up and called cheryl again to ask where to mit her and she said she was abt to go home soon!! F**k! i wasted my time took train all the way to orchard lorhhs!! so i bo bian walk town alone AGAIN!!!

Just when im a little fed up and walking to Ngee Ann City via Wisma Atria, i saw someone familiar leis! at first i was like, ei, looks familiar leh, hair colour so rare in orchard... then in the end is Elaine! hahas! nvr knew will see her in orchard at this time of the day, friday! hahs, so shopped tgt wif her and went to eat at Hougang mall :) anyways we both also wu liao, hahas shoppin alone uhs, sad case!! Ate ajisan lamian, teeth bleed AGAIN!!! 4th time alrdy... -.- we talked abt alot of craps, even talked abt believing in 2012!! scary :( i think that day i still washing ppl's hair in Kimage salon lorhhs!! SIAN! then BOOM! :(
Sobs...

Okays, i guess im really bored naos! typing a post so long and wu liao like essay -.- haizzz, single life nt gd, bt my love life is always screwed up!! maybe staying single still betta uh, unless maybe one day i can find someone i can truly love and forget abt the past, i may start falling in love again. Love is unpredictable, it always comes when u least expect it to, and it is blind!

Hope my life will change bit by bit for godness sake! i don wan to fall back again...

I guess things are jus back to where it all started... but proceeding in a different direction nw...

Today is somewhat a pleasant day :)
no troubles, no irritating ppl, no irritating and annoying happenings!
Jus a plain, normal, simple day :}

Although i started the day with somewhat a little not-so-sober feeling cause of the alchahols and liquors i drank last nite, but its fun having some nice chats wif frens out at nite and drink a little uh, so no regrets! :) jus that my breathe still stinks of alchahol after waking up at arnd near mid noon :/

So jus started the day with GOING OUT! again!! hahax, i jus cant sit obediently at home for a day! hahax, its so BOO0RINGGG!!!! :D
So when out with one of my fren, met her at bugis b4 going over to other place to find another fren to eat lunch! :D
So the usual chattings and gossips and wateva we can think abt, we chat abt over the table while having lunch at Long john :)

hmmps.. then i went over to orchard ALONE after they left, uhs, quite lonely uh, i even fell asleep in bus! lucky woke up jus in time for the stop at orchard rd! GOd Bless ME! :) if nt im gonna end up in some nonsense place agn for sure! LOL!

Okays, i walked arnd orchard ION, then wisma, then ngee ann then cathay then to somerset 313!! so i went to buy bubble tea at 313 basement 3 for my ex-colleages at my former working place in 313 :)
went up to look for them, treat them the bubble teas!! and hmm, nice to see them doing all quite well uh :) bbest luck to all of them! hope business will be betta on days to come :) JIaYou!! :D

after that i went back ngee ann city! walk walk and decided to drop by one of my fren working at taka! hahas :D then jus chat a little with her then after that i went back to ION to buy something!! HAHA, i was looking for something to buy! bcuz i nid a plastic bag to put my sunglass uh! i was holding it on my hand for the whole day!! LOL, hand tired liaoszz haha :D

SO i walked ZARA, cant find the jacket that i want, then went to TOPMAN, cant find a single clothes or accessories worth buying, and then, i went to RIVER ISLAND!! set my eyes on a wallet that is quite cool and nice!! SO i bought it haha!! anyways my wallet is alrdy torn in some places, and looks old alrdys, i bought it at Raffles City's RIVER ISLAND last time!! :) their wallets are jus creative!! and somewhat cool in some ways :)
RIVER ISLAND wallet rocks!! hahas but of course does nt rock if compared to those LOUIS VUITTON, GUCCI, BURBERRY, PRADA wallets i saw... i jus cant choose one out of them!! OH MY GOSH!! but this new wallet shall be my replacement till the time i finally choosed one i really like and decide to buy it :D hahas
OMG, when did i bcome so brand-minded person??!! since i bought my GUCCI belt and got my PRADA sunglass, i was like mad about this branded goods!! OMGosh!! but nvm, buying a few more does nt matter uhs, as long as i use them for l0ng, its worth it :)
the money matters leh... a few more months to come i working as hairstlyist i mend back the lost lorhhs :P hehe!

Okays, im going to play ps3 fifa 10 alrdyss... haish, dunno y from i jus reach home till nw my hands are like a little out of strength >.< dunno why... like a little numb bt nt numb, a little shaking bt nt shaking, a little tired bt nt really tired
-.- i jus dunno hw to explain the feelin!! ZZZ!! its a feeling that no words can ever describe...

hahas, time to stopp blogging alrdyss! SAYONARA everyone! :P

Kimage Salon is my fate?? :/

Today i went to the ITE headquaters in Dover to ask and apply for traineeship course for hairstyling >.<
I went all the way there wif my fren and in the end they say dont nid to come all the way here, jus need to apply online can alrdy...
i was like WTF?!! then wadds wif the go to the ITE HQ for a briefing b4 applying on the web sentence there for?? zzz for show? WTF!

Okays, thats fine, i alrdy went all e ways there alr they jus told me to go the computer and go apply... but then when i apply, there was only 3 company to choose from, kimage, jean yip or kimarie?! LOL i choosed Kimage in the end.. but like wtf, im gonna spoent 2 1/2 yrs at funan digital life mall Kimage salon??!! WTF!
SIAN!!! and they pay is like 600 plus commision for the first yr, then 700 plus commission for 2nd yr && 800 plus commission for the 3rd yr! Okays that was quite low -.-
hopefully the commission nt badd larhhs, if nt i gonna peng san!! LOL

haix wateva, i alr clicked on Kimage, so my fate is Kimage alrdyss... siann!!
Then after that i and my fren, we both took taxi to town to walk walk, lol, go orchard ion and wisma bla bla bla... met new frens, new ppl... c00l!!
hahax :D

Jus reached home nt l00ng only :D hahax
still nt tired lehhs :D hahas :D

Damn, KIMAGE IS MY FATE!!! I till nw still cant belive i clicked on kimage!!! Haix..

Nvm, thats all for today, im gona gt bz wif other things :D hahaax cya!

Aiyoo, this ITE thing is completely driving me crazy!!!!!

OMG!!!
yesturday, i woke up early in the morning to go into the ite website to try applying for the hairstyling course in simei, BUT ITS NO LONGER FOR APPLICATION!!! OMFG!!!

then okay nvm, sua! i changed my mind to go higher nitec and study one course...
the application is starting today! i also woke up in the morning, i go in, same ite website, found out that the application is only open for GCE O levels school leavers!!! WTF!!!

DIE! DIE!! DIE!!!
GONE CASE! should hav taken up ite hair fashion and design course in jan intake uhs... stupid -.-
nvm, anyways im not gonna give up!! im gonna find a way to study hairstyling!!

I jus found out that there is a traineeship course in ite which i can apply, and hairstyling is inside!! its like i dun nid to go sch and learn till wanna die then attachment... instead, if i apply, and successful, i will sign a contract wif the comapany, and then start learning the skills!!! then its like future job secured alr!! omg!! COOL!! im gonna try it haha :D
hope this dont go against me in the end again -.-
hahax wish me luckss! :P

wahh very tired nw, jus came home nt l00nGG, i so far consecutive go out everyday siol!! haha!

buh-byess everyone :P

A Completely insane day.

On 24th Jan, Sunday, i was woke up by my fone msg tone...
Prying my eyes open, i see messages, nothing but messages that only make me go crazy, messages that looked as if its picking a fight, starting a quarrel, breaking friendships and relationships...
Arghh!! Wtf is going on?!
its nt a misunderstanding but a misunderstanding in purpose...
a purpose to create misunderstandings and shatter friendships and relationships...

But nw, i don care...
I shall live my life, my new life that i jus decided to start...
I will live only for myself and those whom i trust...
I wont giv a damn abt things that go against my way...
I will only live to enjoy, live to survive, live to feel alive.
No one can stop me...
Its nt so easy to forgive and forget, thus, i shall carve everything in the closed jail doors of my mind, my heart and my soul. Remembering it always and remind myself nvr to fall back again... Its gonna folow me for life, carved deep in my heart.
I shall live with those things always remembered, and nt forgiven...
But i will stay happy, and i will nvr regret...
Life is short, and i will make full use of it, cherish it... may god open his or her eyes and judge hu is gd or badd... bcuz ppl from this 2 categories are nvr meant to mix... Just like heaven or hell seperated by the human world as the boundary...

I will move on, i will continue my journey in life, but im not afraid to look back again once in a while and smirk and move on again...

Back From Setbacks And Sorrows, Now its Time to Start All Over Again! :)

Sorry everyone, i MIA for a couple of days from internetzzz...
Cuz of alotz of things happened related to relationships...
It took me awhile to think and finally let it go...
Now, im back!! and, back with a new life! a new beginning!!
No worries! im alrights!! for those frens hu are always by my side, thanks alotzz! i really cant do without u all!! :D

Okays, to kick start a new life, i told my current retail course teacher tat i wann quit this course in clementi ite after studying for one day?!! hahas, cause that would do me and my 'ex' good.. so i decided to go simei!! go hairstyling course!! i dunno still can or not lorhs... hope can... hahas cause i wan my hair zai zai go sch hehe, make ppl jealous :O :O hahax! naughty me :P
Anyways life in clementi ite and the course jus sux seriously, i only slp in class only.. might as well don continue study lorhs, one year i dunno study wadd crab... all those we studyin one, when i working they alr taught me... its jus that they only makes things look much more complicated nia, so that u got something to keep u occupied for like 1 yr? l0lx, all those things can be mastered in like less than a month when i was working!! stupid mann!!
So, i thought it through, since i love flamboyant hairstyles, i might as well go be hairstylist, anyway its my interest also :D cut hairstyles that no one have tried b4, cool!! hahax :D

ANd also, im currently in a sh0ppin mood!! who wants to go sh0ppin with me??!! hahax! i SPAM shopping one! :D hahas!!

Anyways, cya everyone!!! i woke up so early uhs -.-

I'm Starting sch tomollo!!

OMG, today morning, or i shld say, yesturday morning... i was sleeping, then the ite teacher called asked me y i nvr go sch today. i was like shock! my first reply was like huh?!!!
l0lx then she said, u dunno today is your first day of sch??!!
i jus replied, 'how in the world do i know, the internet nvr say also...'
l0lx then the teacher lan lan :D
she told me to go sch tomollo! in home clothes bcuz i still dun hav sch uni...
walau, tmr i go sch confirm i only one in house clothes lorhsx... very wierd, confirm everyone staring at me one.. scared sia!!
hahax :D
meeting my bby tmr morning. then go sch tgt hehe :P lurve her <3
walau tmr i still need give the drop sec sch letter to serangoon sec!! wtf! where do i find the time man!! no choice gt to lobang some of my frens lo.. pls help me pls!! :)

Okays i very tired, sleeping early tonight...
goodnightex everyone!! tmr will be a better day!
i hope! harhs! tmr confirm damn scary sia... l0l

I feel the happiest when im wit u...

Today, or shld i say yesturday? WHew! was a somewhat busy day!! :D
got up around 9am plus in the morning, cuz my beloved txt me to accompany her to see doctor, so hav to pick her up from sch!
Wah! u knw, upon seeing the text, i immediately jumped out of bed! no stretching needed for the first time! Haha!
i straight away chiong to brush teeth and bathe, wah bathing in morning damn cold lehhs >.< *shivers*
So i took taxi chiong down to her sch, wait for her. eventually she came out and we took taxi agn go see doctor! :D haha! bby always like to sleep in taxi hahas, sometimes, i jus wanna tell her tat i love the way she sleeps, she looks so cute <3
after seeing doc, we went (censored)puki!(censored) erm sorry, bugis!! hahas :D
We shopped till we dropp mann! in the end bought alot DOMO-KUN!! hahaa, domo bag, wallet, pouch, keychain so on.. lolx
then we went cck eat dinner wif her didi! cute lehs her didi, funny also haha :D
Narhs, then end up shopping in cck till around 7 then go took mrt go clementi, went there derhs photoshop washed some photos from fone.. cute >.<
Then i and her didi sent her back home around 8pm plus?? nt sure timing haha! we had so much fun talking jokes and things we nvr keep track on time haha!
After sending bby home i changed bus to hrabourfront then take mrt home! cool! i feel asleep while standing in mrt :P hehe, zai hors!!
Reached home, bathed, slept till now wake up make my facebook and blog :D hahas
hmmm, im not tired alreadys how arhs?

I KNOW!! i go play ps3!! hehe :P
cya everyone.. haha :D

Am i starting school or not??!!!

To think that till now the results to whether going in ite or not still not out. What the hell! why so draggy sial...
Aiya, anyway nvr go sch also good larhs, everyday slack around...
but slack around also will sian one lorhs, but still betta than go sch haha :D
But, when is the stupid result out man?!! so long! -.-

It seems, im jus too over worried about things at times :)

Hahas, today was a fun day, met bby and went out together! OMG! Can't believe it, last night, I thought i will never be able to see her today! But i can!! SO HAPPY ^^
We sent bugis street, walk walk, then after that went to takashimaya!!
Bought her a Teddy Bear! its so cute larhhs!! she even hugged it everywhere she go! she damn cute larhs! <33
After that we had our dinner at Takashimaya and then went to Somerset 313 to visit Action City! went there to see how my frens are doing :D good to see them doing fine :D the shops changed alotz toos!! :O products also changed :D hahax, no longer the same old products hahas!! :D
Then i wif bby go shop for her hair clips, hair bands and eye liner :D
In the end bought them all at Chamelon :D then we still went to the makeup shop at level 4 to buy her eye shadow!! And omg larhs! they do sell those fake eyelashes that are like got feathers at the sides derhs lorhs!! who dare to wear arhs?? Wear lerhs look like devil siol :D :D :D like MONSTER!! :D
After that we bought strawberry juice :D so nice!! I think im addicted to it! :O
We bid goodbye to my frens in Action city then i brought her to the 313's taxi stand take taxi send her go church, and surprised to see a guy there under somerset 313, helping us open the door and close the door, even wished us a pleasant journey!! So good service and hospitality!! Thumbs Up!:D
When reached the church, i kissed her goodbye and i went to marina square find my frens.. LOL, they were like nothing to do dunno wat to do luhhs... LOL.
We then went to one of my friends' father's shop to buy clothes! its called FOURSKINS! hahax, i bought a t-shirt very racist!! hahas! got picture of damn alot alot of black ppl and theré is a word, 'where's muthu' in the centre! hahs! damn racist against black ppl larhs! hahas :D

Here is the t-shirt :D






Hahas! damn racist mann! :D

ok, continue.. They were actually planning to eat dinner at KFC but i very full so cant eat, they also dont wan eat! LOL! in the end go 7 eleven buy some pies and drinks then full lerhhs HAHA xD
Wah but then when we going home, taking mrt, im like standing and falling asleep in the mrt, oh my, damn tired and worn out :D maybe yesturday nite not enough sleep barhhs :D tonight gonna sleep early :D :D hahas
enjoyed my day today, damn fun!!
Uh.. my eyes blur blurr lerhs, think gonna sleep soon :D
going facebook make some things then sleep lerhs hahas
Goodnights everyone! "/

Why does everything seems to go against me?

I have had enough of things going against me today;
1. A planned meeting out with frens cancelled.
2. My phone has been giving me problems since this morning!
3. Where did my money go?!! I left it on my table yesturday nite! Why gone??
4. PS3 cannot start! Fuck! im having some depression and i am denied of playing games to relax?
5. Having a little headache! now of all times!
6. My beloved txt me said she can't meet me tomorrow bcuz not allowed!
7. What the hell, Action City haven call me to collect my pay! when i nid money, they don call, when i don nid they call me when i not free to collect pay... Wth!

Had enough of today, down on luck today, seriously! Fed Up! PISSED!! Im Fucked!! Assh0le! (if u find this sentence offensive, pls leave, its ur choice to read or not to.)

Im gonna sleep to forget everything, tomorrow is going to be a fcuked up day, seriously! no bby, this saturday's gonna sucks like hell! F***!

Am i over worried about things??

Huhs, can't believe im stuck at home all day today!
No one to go out with, no one to pei me hav soccer kick around..
Going out alone makes no sense also...
So in the end, at home facing 4 walls 4 windows and my wardrobe, Sucks ain't it?!

Okays, now time to let out what i have been keeping in my chest the whole day...
Basically, im worried about things that are happening around me.
Not just BGR things. also about my current plans...
They both seem to bring me nowhere! Im like jus stuck! Stuck!
Wtf is going on wif me uhs?
Current plans? None! Staying at home all day, no school, no work, no play.
Future plans? None! I don't have a plan for now how do i plan for my future?
Okay, wat about BGR? ouh, not be seeing her today for sure... She got her frens, bo bian, got to give way :/

Okay, frens? this is the thing that kept me feeling fed up all day!
Me: Wan go out?
Frens: Cannot (Standard answer)
Me: Why?
Frens: Dunno, tired! (OR) Don't feel like going out today. (Both Standard answer also)

Going out so difficult uhs? What about everytime u all say u all wanna go out, i always follow, nvr complain, after school, so worn out so tired, shagged, but i still tagged along. But why i can do it they all can't? Always say friends forever, Brothers for life... They seem to forget that uhs!
Nevermind, tomorrow they all wan go out, im not tagging along! I rather pei my bby!
I was just thinking of going over to find them after pei bby, but ii hack care already, always say long time no meet long time no meet want to meet, but when i free, don't want go out, i not free keep ask me go out.
So far, its jus recently that i have lesser time to pei them, but when i have time, they have time, they don't want go out, then slack at home smell 4 walls nice? Go ahead then... Im fed up!

Time seems to pass so slow today, maybe bcuz my beloved not by my side :( Nvm! tmr will see her again <3 i will wait :D
im looking forwad to tomorrow "/

Im lost, i don't feel alright, i feel confused...

To think that im still awake now, at this hour... reason?
I also don't know myself...
Im thinking nw that is my decision to go ite a right one?
Is quitting sec 5 the right decision?
I suddenly dont feel like going to ite, dunno y..
I jus suddenly not at all keen in going into ite after hearing someone said abt a particular thing...
i Don't know what to do, the results of me going in or nt still not clearly shown to me..
I dunno if i go in or not, if i go in how? if i did nt, then wat next?
the real reason of my quitting sec 5 is bcuz of escaping from staying back after sch everyday for SRP, and also escape from the hairstyle rule of the sch.
But is this decision too rash?
Is this decision right?
Why did i choose to go ite? bcuz im blinded by love? i put my future at risk bcuz of love?
its a bet too big...
But can i turn back now? No...
idk wat to do, idk wat to say...
After hearing her say that i shld nt go ite jus bcuz of her, and her reasons for saying it, i suddenly feel that i stopped on my path... lost, dk where to go...
But i promised nt to falter, nt to be shaky when things changes, bt can i do it?
im nt sure, idk idk!!
another day passed jus like that, and im still stuck here on my path, lost, dk wat to do, dare nt proceed...
I hate myself for this, but i shall nt fall down, i hav to support someone, i hav to be the strong one, nt the weaker one... anyway its no turning back.
Sorry, but i think i hav to not listen to u for the first time... pls forgive me.