Aiyoo, this ITE thing is completely driving me crazy!!!!!

OMG!!!
yesturday, i woke up early in the morning to go into the ite website to try applying for the hairstyling course in simei, BUT ITS NO LONGER FOR APPLICATION!!! OMFG!!!

then okay nvm, sua! i changed my mind to go higher nitec and study one course...
the application is starting today! i also woke up in the morning, i go in, same ite website, found out that the application is only open for GCE O levels school leavers!!! WTF!!!

DIE! DIE!! DIE!!!
GONE CASE! should hav taken up ite hair fashion and design course in jan intake uhs... stupid -.-
nvm, anyways im not gonna give up!! im gonna find a way to study hairstyling!!

I jus found out that there is a traineeship course in ite which i can apply, and hairstyling is inside!! its like i dun nid to go sch and learn till wanna die then attachment... instead, if i apply, and successful, i will sign a contract wif the comapany, and then start learning the skills!!! then its like future job secured alr!! omg!! COOL!! im gonna try it haha :D
hope this dont go against me in the end again -.-
hahax wish me luckss! :P

wahh very tired nw, jus came home nt l00nGG, i so far consecutive go out everyday siol!! haha!

buh-byess everyone :P

A Completely insane day.

On 24th Jan, Sunday, i was woke up by my fone msg tone...
Prying my eyes open, i see messages, nothing but messages that only make me go crazy, messages that looked as if its picking a fight, starting a quarrel, breaking friendships and relationships...
Arghh!! Wtf is going on?!
its nt a misunderstanding but a misunderstanding in purpose...
a purpose to create misunderstandings and shatter friendships and relationships...

But nw, i don care...
I shall live my life, my new life that i jus decided to start...
I will live only for myself and those whom i trust...
I wont giv a damn abt things that go against my way...
I will only live to enjoy, live to survive, live to feel alive.
No one can stop me...
Its nt so easy to forgive and forget, thus, i shall carve everything in the closed jail doors of my mind, my heart and my soul. Remembering it always and remind myself nvr to fall back again... Its gonna folow me for life, carved deep in my heart.
I shall live with those things always remembered, and nt forgiven...
But i will stay happy, and i will nvr regret...
Life is short, and i will make full use of it, cherish it... may god open his or her eyes and judge hu is gd or badd... bcuz ppl from this 2 categories are nvr meant to mix... Just like heaven or hell seperated by the human world as the boundary...

I will move on, i will continue my journey in life, but im not afraid to look back again once in a while and smirk and move on again...

Back From Setbacks And Sorrows, Now its Time to Start All Over Again! :)

Sorry everyone, i MIA for a couple of days from internetzzz...
Cuz of alotz of things happened related to relationships...
It took me awhile to think and finally let it go...
Now, im back!! and, back with a new life! a new beginning!!
No worries! im alrights!! for those frens hu are always by my side, thanks alotzz! i really cant do without u all!! :D

Okays, to kick start a new life, i told my current retail course teacher tat i wann quit this course in clementi ite after studying for one day?!! hahas, cause that would do me and my 'ex' good.. so i decided to go simei!! go hairstyling course!! i dunno still can or not lorhs... hope can... hahas cause i wan my hair zai zai go sch hehe, make ppl jealous :O :O hahax! naughty me :P
Anyways life in clementi ite and the course jus sux seriously, i only slp in class only.. might as well don continue study lorhs, one year i dunno study wadd crab... all those we studyin one, when i working they alr taught me... its jus that they only makes things look much more complicated nia, so that u got something to keep u occupied for like 1 yr? l0lx, all those things can be mastered in like less than a month when i was working!! stupid mann!!
So, i thought it through, since i love flamboyant hairstyles, i might as well go be hairstylist, anyway its my interest also :D cut hairstyles that no one have tried b4, cool!! hahax :D

ANd also, im currently in a sh0ppin mood!! who wants to go sh0ppin with me??!! hahax! i SPAM shopping one! :D hahas!!

Anyways, cya everyone!!! i woke up so early uhs -.-

I'm Starting sch tomollo!!

OMG, today morning, or i shld say, yesturday morning... i was sleeping, then the ite teacher called asked me y i nvr go sch today. i was like shock! my first reply was like huh?!!!
l0lx then she said, u dunno today is your first day of sch??!!
i jus replied, 'how in the world do i know, the internet nvr say also...'
l0lx then the teacher lan lan :D
she told me to go sch tomollo! in home clothes bcuz i still dun hav sch uni...
walau, tmr i go sch confirm i only one in house clothes lorhsx... very wierd, confirm everyone staring at me one.. scared sia!!
hahax :D
meeting my bby tmr morning. then go sch tgt hehe :P lurve her <3
walau tmr i still need give the drop sec sch letter to serangoon sec!! wtf! where do i find the time man!! no choice gt to lobang some of my frens lo.. pls help me pls!! :)

Okays i very tired, sleeping early tonight...
goodnightex everyone!! tmr will be a better day!
i hope! harhs! tmr confirm damn scary sia... l0l

I feel the happiest when im wit u...

Today, or shld i say yesturday? WHew! was a somewhat busy day!! :D
got up around 9am plus in the morning, cuz my beloved txt me to accompany her to see doctor, so hav to pick her up from sch!
Wah! u knw, upon seeing the text, i immediately jumped out of bed! no stretching needed for the first time! Haha!
i straight away chiong to brush teeth and bathe, wah bathing in morning damn cold lehhs >.< *shivers*
So i took taxi chiong down to her sch, wait for her. eventually she came out and we took taxi agn go see doctor! :D haha! bby always like to sleep in taxi hahas, sometimes, i jus wanna tell her tat i love the way she sleeps, she looks so cute <3
after seeing doc, we went (censored)puki!(censored) erm sorry, bugis!! hahas :D
We shopped till we dropp mann! in the end bought alot DOMO-KUN!! hahaa, domo bag, wallet, pouch, keychain so on.. lolx
then we went cck eat dinner wif her didi! cute lehs her didi, funny also haha :D
Narhs, then end up shopping in cck till around 7 then go took mrt go clementi, went there derhs photoshop washed some photos from fone.. cute >.<
Then i and her didi sent her back home around 8pm plus?? nt sure timing haha! we had so much fun talking jokes and things we nvr keep track on time haha!
After sending bby home i changed bus to hrabourfront then take mrt home! cool! i feel asleep while standing in mrt :P hehe, zai hors!!
Reached home, bathed, slept till now wake up make my facebook and blog :D hahas
hmmm, im not tired alreadys how arhs?

I KNOW!! i go play ps3!! hehe :P
cya everyone.. haha :D

Am i starting school or not??!!!

To think that till now the results to whether going in ite or not still not out. What the hell! why so draggy sial...
Aiya, anyway nvr go sch also good larhs, everyday slack around...
but slack around also will sian one lorhs, but still betta than go sch haha :D
But, when is the stupid result out man?!! so long! -.-

It seems, im jus too over worried about things at times :)

Hahas, today was a fun day, met bby and went out together! OMG! Can't believe it, last night, I thought i will never be able to see her today! But i can!! SO HAPPY ^^
We sent bugis street, walk walk, then after that went to takashimaya!!
Bought her a Teddy Bear! its so cute larhhs!! she even hugged it everywhere she go! she damn cute larhs! <33
After that we had our dinner at Takashimaya and then went to Somerset 313 to visit Action City! went there to see how my frens are doing :D good to see them doing fine :D the shops changed alotz toos!! :O products also changed :D hahax, no longer the same old products hahas!! :D
Then i wif bby go shop for her hair clips, hair bands and eye liner :D
In the end bought them all at Chamelon :D then we still went to the makeup shop at level 4 to buy her eye shadow!! And omg larhs! they do sell those fake eyelashes that are like got feathers at the sides derhs lorhs!! who dare to wear arhs?? Wear lerhs look like devil siol :D :D :D like MONSTER!! :D
After that we bought strawberry juice :D so nice!! I think im addicted to it! :O
We bid goodbye to my frens in Action city then i brought her to the 313's taxi stand take taxi send her go church, and surprised to see a guy there under somerset 313, helping us open the door and close the door, even wished us a pleasant journey!! So good service and hospitality!! Thumbs Up!:D
When reached the church, i kissed her goodbye and i went to marina square find my frens.. LOL, they were like nothing to do dunno wat to do luhhs... LOL.
We then went to one of my friends' father's shop to buy clothes! its called FOURSKINS! hahax, i bought a t-shirt very racist!! hahas! got picture of damn alot alot of black ppl and theré is a word, 'where's muthu' in the centre! hahs! damn racist against black ppl larhs! hahas :D

Here is the t-shirt :D






Hahas! damn racist mann! :D

ok, continue.. They were actually planning to eat dinner at KFC but i very full so cant eat, they also dont wan eat! LOL! in the end go 7 eleven buy some pies and drinks then full lerhhs HAHA xD
Wah but then when we going home, taking mrt, im like standing and falling asleep in the mrt, oh my, damn tired and worn out :D maybe yesturday nite not enough sleep barhhs :D tonight gonna sleep early :D :D hahas
enjoyed my day today, damn fun!!
Uh.. my eyes blur blurr lerhs, think gonna sleep soon :D
going facebook make some things then sleep lerhs hahas
Goodnights everyone! "/

Why does everything seems to go against me?

I have had enough of things going against me today;
1. A planned meeting out with frens cancelled.
2. My phone has been giving me problems since this morning!
3. Where did my money go?!! I left it on my table yesturday nite! Why gone??
4. PS3 cannot start! Fuck! im having some depression and i am denied of playing games to relax?
5. Having a little headache! now of all times!
6. My beloved txt me said she can't meet me tomorrow bcuz not allowed!
7. What the hell, Action City haven call me to collect my pay! when i nid money, they don call, when i don nid they call me when i not free to collect pay... Wth!

Had enough of today, down on luck today, seriously! Fed Up! PISSED!! Im Fucked!! Assh0le! (if u find this sentence offensive, pls leave, its ur choice to read or not to.)

Im gonna sleep to forget everything, tomorrow is going to be a fcuked up day, seriously! no bby, this saturday's gonna sucks like hell! F***!

Am i over worried about things??

Huhs, can't believe im stuck at home all day today!
No one to go out with, no one to pei me hav soccer kick around..
Going out alone makes no sense also...
So in the end, at home facing 4 walls 4 windows and my wardrobe, Sucks ain't it?!

Okays, now time to let out what i have been keeping in my chest the whole day...
Basically, im worried about things that are happening around me.
Not just BGR things. also about my current plans...
They both seem to bring me nowhere! Im like jus stuck! Stuck!
Wtf is going on wif me uhs?
Current plans? None! Staying at home all day, no school, no work, no play.
Future plans? None! I don't have a plan for now how do i plan for my future?
Okay, wat about BGR? ouh, not be seeing her today for sure... She got her frens, bo bian, got to give way :/

Okay, frens? this is the thing that kept me feeling fed up all day!
Me: Wan go out?
Frens: Cannot (Standard answer)
Me: Why?
Frens: Dunno, tired! (OR) Don't feel like going out today. (Both Standard answer also)

Going out so difficult uhs? What about everytime u all say u all wanna go out, i always follow, nvr complain, after school, so worn out so tired, shagged, but i still tagged along. But why i can do it they all can't? Always say friends forever, Brothers for life... They seem to forget that uhs!
Nevermind, tomorrow they all wan go out, im not tagging along! I rather pei my bby!
I was just thinking of going over to find them after pei bby, but ii hack care already, always say long time no meet long time no meet want to meet, but when i free, don't want go out, i not free keep ask me go out.
So far, its jus recently that i have lesser time to pei them, but when i have time, they have time, they don't want go out, then slack at home smell 4 walls nice? Go ahead then... Im fed up!

Time seems to pass so slow today, maybe bcuz my beloved not by my side :( Nvm! tmr will see her again <3 i will wait :D
im looking forwad to tomorrow "/

Im lost, i don't feel alright, i feel confused...

To think that im still awake now, at this hour... reason?
I also don't know myself...
Im thinking nw that is my decision to go ite a right one?
Is quitting sec 5 the right decision?
I suddenly dont feel like going to ite, dunno y..
I jus suddenly not at all keen in going into ite after hearing someone said abt a particular thing...
i Don't know what to do, the results of me going in or nt still not clearly shown to me..
I dunno if i go in or not, if i go in how? if i did nt, then wat next?
the real reason of my quitting sec 5 is bcuz of escaping from staying back after sch everyday for SRP, and also escape from the hairstyle rule of the sch.
But is this decision too rash?
Is this decision right?
Why did i choose to go ite? bcuz im blinded by love? i put my future at risk bcuz of love?
its a bet too big...
But can i turn back now? No...
idk wat to do, idk wat to say...
After hearing her say that i shld nt go ite jus bcuz of her, and her reasons for saying it, i suddenly feel that i stopped on my path... lost, dk where to go...
But i promised nt to falter, nt to be shaky when things changes, bt can i do it?
im nt sure, idk idk!!
another day passed jus like that, and im still stuck here on my path, lost, dk wat to do, dare nt proceed...
I hate myself for this, but i shall nt fall down, i hav to support someone, i hav to be the strong one, nt the weaker one... anyway its no turning back.
Sorry, but i think i hav to not listen to u for the first time... pls forgive me.